Day 10
If you’re reading this, you got to listen to the podcast as well. Helped me a lot today. I am more positive. Fight!
Day 9
I’m about to plunge into something I am less familiar with. Lord, may the cloud of your anointing and protection be above me as I go to a place I haven’t gone to before. I am excited to learn new things and meet new people. Kung pwede nga po closer to my God’s will— your best. Who knows, diba?
Choose love, even when love is the last thing you want to give, because absolutely nothing you are is your own. You are a product of grace and every single part of you exists simply because He does. He needs to be what people see every single time, especially in those instances when you’re feeling bitter or angry at someone. Especially when all you want to do is leave. Especially when you’ve been disrespected and ridiculed and let down. Always choose the beat of God’s heart over your own, because there are too many cold hearts in this world and not enough that beat to the rhythm of love. You were not created to react to things like everyone else does.
Day 8
I choose love and I choose not to be like THEM. I want to choose and follow after the beat of God’s love for me who is broken, sinful, hurting and tired. In spite of everything, his love for me remains and lifts me from the pit I was once in. Marami nang malalamig na puso, bitter, galit at matabang, ayoko nang dumagdag. I know it’s easier said than done but with God’s grace I know I can.
Time will come wala na akong inis, wala nang pait at wala nang galit when I talk about you or what happened to our story. Kapag napag-usapan, either matatawa ako or I’ll look at it as a blessing in disguise. If not for it, I wouldn’t be where I’m in right now. If not for it, I wouldn’t fight for myself and for my identity.
I choose to love, to let go and let God. If all things work out again, I’ll give thanks to the Lord. If it doesn’t I’ll give thanks all the same because I know God’s best is somewhere out there. :) (via followandreblog) (via followandreblog)
I’ll base my answer on experience: When you pray about it and God tells you, “Yes, it’s time.” Er I don’t know how this answer would come across to you and you might say, “Hey why do you have to ask God? Why can’t you end it once it starts to get uncomfortable?” or “Aren’t you supposed to endure EVERYTHING in love? Isn’t that what love does?” and this list could go on and on but to keep this short I know it’s time to end it when the relationship isn’t being a good representation of how God intended love to be— when it starts to be more about taking than giving, when pride gets in more than humility, when dishonesty and jealousy overpower trust. Lalala
On how you discern it’s already time to end things with your present relationship.
Day 6
Uy oh! It’s us on our first afternoon together somewhere in a hotel in Manila. HAHA!
DAY 5
No better way to get yourself back together but by going back to the basic and your first love— GOD. I had an amazing time crying and praying to Him this evening. I felt a good release. It was the worst cry I had since the break-up and the “finding out” but I must say it was very liberating. :) Lord, like I said. I am broken in so many ways. I know there are things about me that I can’t bring back but I am Your daughter. I am the King of King’s and the Lord of Lord’s daughter, WHO CAN STAND AGAINST ME? Who can hurt me? Make me new and make me whole again, Lord. May I be righteous and better than ever for God’s best for me— my God’s will. Amen. :)
Photo Courtesy: dis-appointment
Day 4 (No.2)
WORST DAY in my quest for recovery. I MISS YOU. REAL BAD. I did too many things today just to distract myself but I still miss you. I SHOULDN’T! YOUR ACTIONS SHOW YOU DON’T SO WHY WOULD I??? SUUUUUUCCCCCCCKKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSS! REALLY SUCKS! :(
I was holding my phone fighting the urge to txt you: HI, MISYEW! POTA BADUY! But heck I JUST DO! tangnapre!
Why do I feel this way when it’s you who did me bad? When it was you who broke promises and left me? DAMN! Today is by far my most vulnerable day. I’m just proud of myself I didn’t txt you nor gave you a drop call.
What’s worst? No matter how hard I try to ignore and resist, I still worry about you. You haven’t been going to church too. I’m worried you’re so drawn into “the dark side” and I couldn’t do anything about it because I’m in no position anymore in your life. UGH!
Lord, please press the refresh button in my life. I don’t want to be drawn too much in my past. My mind is so willing but I guess my heart just cannot.
And yes, I’m ranting… again. To you, reading. Sorry no other place for me to vent it out.
